Shadow & me

Today I have urged my shadow to give me off for a day,

Let it go whatever I have, let me decide the things on my own way,

Today I have said, don’t try to hold my thoughts ever,

I know you cared for me, and I do care for you too,

But now it’s time to move on, we have our own paths,

Allow me to draw my own boundaries, just do that favor,

Today I have said, I know you are there, you will be always and you want the same,

If I did, it wouldn't be right for you, have gone so far,

Even I came back; couldn’t be the same as before, will be just as a silent name,

Today I have said, it’s rational but there is no point to hold me back,

It’s true, your companionship was beautiful, had the most amazing time ever,

But the darkness inside you always spooked me, left some unaccounted crack,

Today I have said, I know it’s difficult for us to move far away from here,

To begin with a new life, I don’t want any remnants from my earlier itinerary,

I am sure it would be good for both of us, that will set our lives free from any fear,

           Today I have said, I know you always wanted to be with me, that we chose,

            We have never comprehended the fact that we closed ourselves in a box,

            We were only there, just us and our depicted world,

            But to fulfill our desires, we have to move out, move out from own shadows,

 

            Today I have said, forgive me for being so conceited my dear, it hurts I know,

            Believe me, you are everything for me, and I can’t see myself as a misery in your life,

            I have to go, there is no other option, please let me go my dear shadow.

Yesterday evening

Yesterday evening when I was travelling back to my place,
And looking outside from the bus window,
I was there for everyone, but I wasn’t, even I didn’t know,
Capriciously watching me and free moving my own shadow,

Yellow street lamps along the road, trees and people,
I felt everyone was running with me, like me no one wants to go back,
But something was holding both of us, pushed to never get these thoughts,
Just they knew, actually our thoughts were already turned black,

Cold breeze of wind after a hot perspiring day, moved closer to me,
Whispered their own story slowly in my ears and then went inside,
I forgot everything, where I was, where I was before, and what I was doing,
Even it was pain, embraced warmly, what they had left behind,

Hands were holding the curtains of my window, didn’t allow them to fly,
It is said everywhere, no one is bounded, but in reality there is no free sky
I knew they just want to remind me of you, your presence in them,
I was dithering to say, but I reached by the time and had to say goodbye.