Forgiveness

What should I write today? That question was rambling inside the mind and making me furious. After struggling with my own perturbations, I decided to write about “Forgiveness”. Yeah it’s little bit weird to write about this on New Year’s Eve but I think it is necessary like everything. We must have given pain to someone, not intentionally but I think we did and we also got pain from someone at some points. This is the life, we all are here to experience all kinds of things. We are about to start a new year with new dreams, and I think we don’t want to carry any remnants of past on our shoulders that was painful. To have a new start without any resentments, anger and pain, we should forgive others as well as ourselves to let it go. Otherwise with a filled bag in a new year, we will always feel lack of space to add new things on our part.  The simplest way to free ourselves from all the bounded and unbounded feelings is the forgiveness. I wish at New Year’s Eve we all can do this and prepare ourselves for a better tomorrow.

I didn’t remember but somewhere I have done the same what you did,

In my eyes, we are same now, no one is better than other, so let it go,

Maybe we are destined to do that, and then there is no point to carry any grudges inside,

We need to move on and prepare ourselves for tomorrow’s show,

Somewhere inside my diary pages, I tried to keep you back,

But I was wrong, I can’t hold the stream of flowing river,

I drowned, because I was not able to swim and the river was too wide,

Not the flooded river’s fault, it was mine, I shouldn’t have gone inside,

Written words as a unforgettable notes, laying on our study table,

We both write, sometime for the time, and sometimes for ourselves,

Yeah sometimes too harsh and bitter, to have them from us that was never imagined,

But that has passed and there is no need to account that in future,

We know now in a better way where we are, and where we have to go without any rancor and fear,

Then just free yourself tonight, and let it go,

Forgive the past that might be painful sometimes because of us,

Keep them away and not to carry them any more with our new start,

Even without any memory, we will be still together because of the forgiveness which is our part.

Flowing emotions

Sometimes randomness comes forward and forces you to write something randomly. This one is not related to anything, it’s just piece of writing, directed by some flowing emotions.

Flowing emotions, where should I keep you,

I have already lost everything in the inside flood,

All the places, and everything of mine,

Even if I try again, I can only get back some piece of memory,

Now there is nothing left at the coast line,

I know you need place but what should I do,

My boat has already sunk in the storm,

And I am also looking for the place to have a rest for a while,

You don’t have to cover a long distance, just from eyes to heart,

But here it’s very huge, I can count in thousands of miles,

Flowing emotion, it would be nice if you hold yourself for some time,

I can’t handle all the things at the same time,

Because if I drown this time, I won’t be able to survive again,

I will lose everything, even myself in a undefined vain.

My Christmas gift

Being a child, I was always fascinated about the Christmas gifts. Christmas tree, hanging gifts, putting star on the top, had been driven me crazy as a child. Even till now, I wait every year for the Christmas gift, just the idea of gift has been changed over the years. Now my eyes don’t look for the gift which is wrapped in a flashy embedded paper sheet. Sometimes I try to look in the empty boxes maybe something I get there, maybe that can touch my soul and give a reason to begin a new journey, for that I am looking from long time. That gift would be a real one, maybe not this year, maybe not next year too but I will continue my search for that gift and I am sure one day I will have it. 

I always try to look for you,

Sometimes inside the empty boxes,

I imagined maybe you are sleeping there for some time,

And you wanted me to wake you up,

Because you wanted to become mine,

Sometimes behind the cloths in the cupboard,

I thought maybe you wanted to play with the colors,

So you can also adorn yourself with them,

And later you can enlighten my story with the same,

Sometimes I read the old letters again,

Looking at each word more deeply, with the hope to find you there,

Maybe some pieces of yours are still remain,

Sometimes I go for a long walk,

Maybe the surroundings give some indication to find you,

Maybe you are laying there somewhere, unwrapped solely in the lap of nature,

Waiting for me to bring you back, to feel as you are, a beautiful creature,

Never mind, I will continue my search every year,

Maybe not soon but one day I will find you dear.

Calling home

It’s difficult sometimes to say and portrait everything in the defined sentences. I found my fingers were moving on the keyboard but were not able to formulate the meaningful word. They were lost somewhere like me, and were not able to synchronize the thoughts. Somehow they are missing home, missing the thought of being in the company of people those love is all about everything. Their love has no reason, they love you and it does not matter who you are. I know sometimes we all feel the same, thousand miles away from the home and sitting alone in front of your laptop, sometimes bring you in the frame of mind where you began to reminisce every moment. I am not writing just this for me, it’s for everyone those are not with their loved ones. I wish tonight we all get some magical power for a second so we can visit back and have some nice moments. 

Letters on the keyboard are not so far to have a meaning,

But the reality is counted in thousand miles and different time zones,

Those have made the things difficult so the words are losing their feeling,

I know even if you sing a song tonight, no one is going to hear that,

But it will definitely reach to their hearts, whom you loved,

When the warm breeze touches their soul in a cold weary night,

It will remind them about you because they know it can’t be anyone else,

It’s you, even if you are not so close but you only have that loving sight,

Let them float tonight like a bound and unbound thoughts,

Let them reach to the another part of the world along with our good morning and good night kisses,

So we can still be a part of each other even we are living different lives,

We can have some moments maybe not real but that makes our relation alive,

Calling home, maybe just not me, maybe for us, is looking for the shelter tonight,

Ready to find out some more words to define the missing feelings,

Those are warmth, a holding hand and big hug which should be tight.

Warmth winter night

Sometimes the company of friends gives you the pleasure in chilly winter night. This one is written for their amazing companionship.

I often feel in those chilly winter nights,

When the things are spiritless and too dry outside,

A glass of wine with a friend is quite enough to give warmth inside,

When the stories begin with the evening and end late night,

Where you always complain about the time, why it’s running so fast,

You want night to be young as in the starting,

You want to have every moment on your side, though it comes in the last,

 I might fold some pages tonight, so I can keep some memory with me,

I know the empty wine glasses will fill again our lives,

Even I feel stop sometimes, you will drive me to an end,

That is all about, there is no doubt about you my friend.