Last day of the month, no words, no thoughts...

Last day of the month, and I don’t know what to write today. Everything seems very rational, and I am loosing myself somewhere. Somewhere even I don’t know the place, the letters are playing in front of me, dancing on my keyboard but not ready to formulate any word for me. Maybe they don’t want to show chaos inside my mind to this rational world. Many of us might have the same feeling today, and everyone wants to find out that feeling same as me.

On the empty roads, have found my footprints,

Looking for themselves, where to go they don’t have any hints,

Not scared to see the rationality of the world,

Own trepidation is sometimes more scary than anything,

Have the blank pages in my hands but forgot how to write the word,

Darkness outside the room does not seem dark to me,

This is not something, from which I want to hide,

When I close my eyes, I will see the different form of me,

I don’t want to see that neither nor the darkness inside,

Tonight with my broken words, in my unfinished story,

Maybe I will find no meaning my dear friend,

But maybe some other day, some other time, will find something,

For me it’s beginning to know myself, not an end.

Did you remember, what had you said?

Today, the topic is quite different. Yesterday night, when I was heading to sleep, was surfing on the internet and found an old documentary. I watched it; but it was very different from my taste. Actually like another day; yesterday was quite hard for me, in the morning I found my laptop is not working, I don’t know about others but for me it is everything and my friends know this better. I wanted to watch something, so thanks to my mobile. In a kind of sad mood, I have decided to watch this because there was no other option, and I was not sleepy too. The story was about a girl, who was waiting for someone from several years. She lost herself completely for someone just to be with him. At the end she didn’t find anything, she has only earned endless pain for herself. She had questions, number of questions, she wanted to ask him. Why he did this to her? 

Did you remember?

You had said, you will be back very soon,
Why am I looking for you in the shadows of time,

Why am I engraving our names on piece of rocks, and can’t say mine?

You had said, you will never leave me alone;
Why my roads are still empty,
Why we have always been found in dreams, nowhere in reality,

You had said, you will be here with me as a companion,
Why I have been finding myself alone every morning,
Edges were there still I could not save myself from drowning,

You had said, you will never allow myself to be lost,
Why in the silence I could not identify myself today,
Why I am so scared, sometimes forgot my own voice,

And there is nothing; which I wanted to say,

You had said, you will never allow anyone to make me sad;
Why there is no smile, still I am searching myself in unsaid lies,
And why I have forgotten to give some rest to my sleepless nights, 

You had said, you will never let me wait,

Why I am still waiting, and decades has been passed away,
I am still the same, but my whole beauty is shattered on its way,

You had said many things, but didn’t remember anything,

But I want to forget everything, don’t have any complains my dear friend,

It was destined for us; it was not your mistake,

But my feelings were true, and now my last breath has a single desire to see you before end.

Get ready to fly high..

Today I have written something for two beautiful people Rishu and Sunayana, I wanted to write something for them earlier but finally I did. I am sure that they will completely understand the idea behind scribbling these thoughts in words. This is just for you guys, you know sometimes when I found myself surrounded by some doubtful clouds, or not able to see the serenity inside me and sometimes do not want to listen anyone, in that case every time I stared at sky for the moment and tell myself “you have a big sky so don’t worry”.

No matter what happens,

Never live with questions like “why”,

Life is beautiful and loving,

Always full of challenges,

So Enjoy to being part of it,

And get ready to fly high,

Sometimes dreams seem so far,

But remember they are inside you,

Hold tight and never let them go away,

It’s yours; you have to win the war,

Sometimes there is a barrier,

Language, culture and distances,

No need to scare anymore,

Ready to imbibe everything

Because everything is just yours,

Hurdles are definitely here,

But you have to choose your own path,

Where you can write your own things,

No one else have the right to define your fate,

Darkness will spook you sometimes,

Bring your own light, give her an end,

This world is yours, if not then will be yours very soon,

Love yourself, and love the world my dear friend,

There is no limit for you my dear,

Just see the things around,

You have a free sky,

You just have to believe yourself,

You will be able to see the truth behind any lie.