Dates on my calendar....

Dates on my calendar has gone somewhere,

Strange but some places are blank, maybe they are taking naps,

But where, they have to come back on time; will not tolerate this crap,

Scheduled meetings and notifications has scared you,

I know this, and that’s why you have left me alone,

But think about me, this is my life, even sometimes I have to schedule my feelings too,

Then why are you so scared than me, without you I am countless, need you so come back soon,

I know you don’t like schedules, and want your life in your own way,

To be with me, you have to leave your this attitude, won’t help you,

I want to bind everything in you, maybe my breathe one day,

That’s my love for you; wish to confine my whole world in you,

I want to begin every day with you, and you are just true,

Let me tell you, if you won’t come back, my life will become disaster,

Timeless canvas of my life will do some conspiracy my dear,

And I will lose everything, maybe somewhere myself too,

At the end you will not find me, you will get only fear.

Meaningless world

Hard to find sometimes your own meanings, what you have missed out somewhere in this meaningless world,

Randomness is quite often here, and you feel helpless sometimes when you know there is nothing to define,

When everything seems irrational and confused, and even after several efforts you couldn’t be able to keep the things align,

Walking alone on the endless street without having any definite destination, and the realization of being lost,

Strangling thoughts in the mind, don’t have any idea about their genesis how they arrived but like darkness they are coloring everything in the same color of life draft,

Struggling words, forgot to formulate a sentence to ask a right way to get back home today,

Don’t know, what to do in this case, should wait for a while or leave everything for another day,

I know my confused mind, now moving into your head, and making you confused too,

Because you are always there for me, I know this, you will never have any complaints, that’s why I am sharing this with you,

But I need my answers, lies which I have been watching everywhere, have to go away,

And I know that journey is very long and have to cover alone, no one else can be there, not even you my dear,

But one day I will be back with new meanings, will give this world new perception and that is absolutely true.

“Joker” of the show

Company of some unknown words, and list of some undecided work,

I really don’t know sometimes what to do and where I should go,

Sometimes it feels very different and rational, when nothing is in the mind,

And sometimes I presume myself just as a “Joker”, where everyone is waiting for the show,

Where the intention of people is only to see a smile on your face,

They never tried to perceive the things, what you wanted to do,

What things are you concealing behind it, and what is true,

No doubt they are with you, but in reality everything is pseudo,

To share the things and embrace you, no one would come and that you know,

Sometimes it’s really hard to concede the fact,

Make a balance between feelings inside your heart and expressions, and keep your relation intact,

When you know, for them you are not important, just a source of amusement,

They need you but not for you, just to get some pleasure from you,

And you will be always remembered, that is definitely true but just as a statement,

I know even all this, does not change us, we will always do the same,

We will smile, and give them a reason to smile with us, but will never show our inner fear,

We will give them happiness, and try to find out some happiness for ourselves in between them my dear.